So I know that I don't write here very often... but I decided that I'm gonna start again. Umm... whats new... I quit one of my jobs... so now I just work at the eject 11 hours a week... its great fun. Classes are interesting... I like most of them a lot. But, I was very disturbed by something Bob said in one of my classes... he was talking about Marriage and Love.
He says that love is a verb. Its a decision an action. I agree with that, but then he continues on. He says that there is not "a person" out there for you. He says that we could theoretically marry any person and make it just as good of a marriage as with any other person. All you have to do is decided to love that person, and that person decide to love you in return. And just keep on making that decision. Honestly, can this be true? Wouldn't you think that God, who has all power and control, who is all loving and caring, would take more time than that with our lives and marriage? So I get to thinking. Could my grandma have had just as fufilling of a life with any other person? No. My grandpa was one in a million and there is no way she could have loved another man as she loved him. Could I honestly love any guy I wanted to and care about him as much as I care about other guys? No. I don't have the level of trust and understanding with every guy. Chauncy and I wrote a song this summer about our friend Jesse. It was called, "if I loved you I'd marry you" taken from a quote of mine. Honestly, I think hes a great guy, and I love him as a friend/brother in Christ... but honestly could I ever marry him? Could I make the decision to love him and keep loving him. That would be insane. So now I'm just confused. Does this mean that feelings I have for say a certain guy aren't real? Am I just pretending to love him to have somebody to love? Should I even care?