I'm not gonna cry
I'm not gonna cry
I'm not gonna cry
Why am I crying?

Today is going to be a better day.

i like the way you wanted me
every night for so long baby
i like the way you needed me
everytime that things got rocky
i was believing in you
was i mistaken
do you say
do you say what you mean
i want our love to last forever

i'd rather you be mean
than love and lie
i'd rather hear the truth
and have to say goodbye
i'd rather take a blow
at least then i would know
but baby don't you break my heart slow

i like the way you'd hold me
every night for so long baby
i like you'd say my name
in the middle of the night
while you were sleeping
i was believing in you
was i mistaken
do you mean
do you mean what you say
when you say our love could last forever

i'd rather you be mean
than love and lie
i'd rather hear the truth
and have to say goodbye
i'd rather take a blow
at least then i would know
but baby don't you break my heart slow

you'd run around
and lead me on forever
while i wait at home
still thinking we're together
i wanted our love to last forever

i'd rather you be mean
than love and lie
i'd rather hear the truth
and say goodbye
i'd rather take a blow
at least then i would know
but baby don't you break my heart slow

Gee... thats a good song...
Its kinda sad... but it reminds me of the Pub Haus
workin with my Kayou... among other things...

I just know that I have felt "right" for moments sometimes days at a time...
but it never lasts...
cause reality hits...
and my dreams become so far away

How long till my soul gets it right?

Why can't I just feel happy?

grrrr
arrrg
cry.

i feel nothing
i am numb
why?

I hate it when it gets to Sunday evening...